HumanOnEarth https://humanonearth.writeas.com/ Diary of a middle eastern girl living aborad Wed, 06 May 2026 11:38:49 +0000 I met one of my neighbors today. He is nice to talk to, young, chill. https://humanonearth.writeas.com/i-met-one-of-my-neighbors-today?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[I met one of my neighbors today. He is nice to talk to, young, chill. Glad to have a friend in the building. Made my day better.]]> I met one of my neighbors today. He is nice to talk to, young, chill.

Glad to have a friend in the building.

Made my day better.

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/i-met-one-of-my-neighbors-today Wed, 05 Jun 2024 20:49:02 +0000 I've been staring at the wall since 6pm, cant put words to the feelings yet,... https://humanonearth.writeas.com/ive-been-staring-at-the-wall-since-6pm-cant-put-words-to-the-feelings-yet?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[I've been staring at the wall since 6pm, cant put words to the feelings yet, there's always lots of anger behind these moments, but also lots of relief after took those pain meds for TM to calm down a bit am craving hotdogs so bad good night 😴]]> I've been staring at the wall since 6pm, cant put words to the feelings yet, there's always lots of anger behind these moments, but also lots of relief after

took those pain meds for TM to calm down a bit

am craving hotdogs so bad

good night 😴

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/ive-been-staring-at-the-wall-since-6pm-cant-put-words-to-the-feelings-yet Wed, 05 Jun 2024 20:38:10 +0000 Dear, https://humanonearth.writeas.com/dear?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[Dear, i like how u dont reply. it makes it easy to talk knowing that u probably don't read them or care. I have this bad habit of getting myself involved in situationships that end up hurting me quite a lot, but I am not capable of committing to anything, especially people, anyway, I wonder if there is anything good on the other side of my fears. I've been dealing with one of those since I came here, which kept me quite busy. It seems it's coming to an end. The thoughts of being alone are giving me anxiety, i feel like i might go insane, which again is stupid and extreme. I don't have the energy to jump into another one of these meaningless relationships, might go back to playing piano to fill the time, anyway, enough late night thoughts, need some sleep, good night]]> Dear,

i like how u dont reply. it makes it easy to talk knowing that u probably don't read them or care.

I have this bad habit of getting myself involved in situationships that end up hurting me quite a lot, but I am not capable of committing to anything, especially people, anyway, I wonder if there is anything good on the other side of my fears. I've been dealing with one of those since I came here, which kept me quite busy. It seems it's coming to an end. The thoughts of being alone are giving me anxiety, i feel like i might go insane, which again is stupid and extreme.

I don't have the energy to jump into another one of these meaningless relationships, might go back to playing piano to fill the time, anyway, enough late night thoughts, need some sleep, good night

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/dear Tue, 04 Jun 2024 06:19:12 +0000 feeling like shit. https://humanonearth.writeas.com/feeling-like-shit?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[feeling like shit. been throwing up all the stress in my toilet for the last 24 hours. ]]> feeling like shit. been throwing up all the stress in my toilet for the last 24 hours.

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/feeling-like-shit Tue, 28 May 2024 12:04:19 +0000 Made a cake to share with colleagues. The cake was super sweet and shitty. https://humanonearth.writeas.com/made-a-cake-to-share-with-colleagues?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[Made a cake to share with colleagues. The cake was super sweet and shitty. It really triggered my anxiety, I felt angry, judged, I wanted to scream. No one said anything, it's just me judging myself. Then I gave it some thought. The purpose of this is to practice baking and get some feedback. The purpose is not to make people love me, accept me, or validate me. deep breaths. ]]> Made a cake to share with colleagues. The cake was super sweet and shitty.

It really triggered my anxiety, I felt angry, judged, I wanted to scream.

No one said anything, it's just me judging myself.

Then I gave it some thought.

The purpose of this is to practice baking and get some feedback.

The purpose is not to make people love me, accept me, or validate me.

deep breaths.

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/made-a-cake-to-share-with-colleagues Mon, 27 May 2024 08:09:21 +0000 sometimes you just have to be selfish https://humanonearth.writeas.com/sometimes-you-just-have-to-be-selfish?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[sometimes you just have to be selfish]]> sometimes you just have to be selfish

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/sometimes-you-just-have-to-be-selfish Sun, 26 May 2024 11:40:08 +0000 Brown noise, the forest app & Notion are the best focus and productivity tools... https://humanonearth.writeas.com/brown-noise-the-forest-app-and-notion-are-the-best-focus-and-productivity-tools?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[Brown noise, the forest app & Notion are the best focus and productivity tools I came across so far.]]> Brown noise, the forest app & Notion are the best focus and productivity tools I came across so far.

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/brown-noise-the-forest-app-and-notion-are-the-best-focus-and-productivity-tools Thu, 23 May 2024 10:17:21 +0000 feeling accomplished and proud of myself for how far I've come since I moved... https://humanonearth.writeas.com/feeling-accomplished-and-proud-of-myself-for-how-far-ive-come-since-i-moved?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[feeling accomplished and proud of myself for how far I've come since I moved here. Looking forward to buying a car. I want to adopt a cat by the end of the year as well. Hopeful ]]> feeling accomplished and proud of myself for how far I've come since I moved here.

Looking forward to buying a car.

I want to adopt a cat by the end of the year as well.

Hopeful

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/feeling-accomplished-and-proud-of-myself-for-how-far-ive-come-since-i-moved Thu, 23 May 2024 07:19:49 +0000 A girl at work asked me about the recipe for a cake I made a few days ago. https://humanonearth.writeas.com/a-girl-at-work-asked-me-about-the-recipe-for-a-cake-i-made-a-few-days-ago?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[A girl at work asked me about the recipe for a cake I made a few days ago. Another guy that interviewed me before I joined asked me to get a coffee sometime. I love these little chats, they make work seem a little more healthy.]]> A girl at work asked me about the recipe for a cake I made a few days ago. Another guy that interviewed me before I joined asked me to get a coffee sometime. I love these little chats, they make work seem a little more healthy.

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/a-girl-at-work-asked-me-about-the-recipe-for-a-cake-i-made-a-few-days-ago Thu, 23 May 2024 07:14:53 +0000 I did everything I was supposed to do. https://humanonearth.writeas.com/i-did-everything-i-was-supposed-to-do?pk_campaign=rss-feed <![CDATA[I did everything I was supposed to do. Woke up early, took a shower, went to the dr appointment, worked hard in the office, cleaned the house, called my parents, texted my friends, went to bed early. The perfect day. Yet, I felt like an exhausted zombie, my back hurts, my hands get numb and tingly. I took some melatonin and ashwaganda to relieve the stress and get proper sleep. Woke up 10 hours later, feeling better. I want to try a classpass gym today, maybe a body pump class? I miss those a lot. let's start the day. ]]> I did everything I was supposed to do. Woke up early, took a shower, went to the dr appointment, worked hard in the office, cleaned the house, called my parents, texted my friends, went to bed early. The perfect day.

Yet, I felt like an exhausted zombie, my back hurts, my hands get numb and tingly. I took some melatonin and ashwaganda to relieve the stress and get proper sleep.

Woke up 10 hours later, feeling better.

I want to try a classpass gym today, maybe a body pump class? I miss those a lot.

let's start the day.

]]> https://humanonearth.writeas.com/i-did-everything-i-was-supposed-to-do Thu, 23 May 2024 07:10:00 +0000